I am starting a new job next week. Smoking is a real problem for me at work, because I work in the healthcare field and it's VERY frowned upon. No one smokes anymore. So, everyone can smell it no matter how hard you try to hide it, gum, lotion, sprays, etc. Plus, I have to get in my car and drive off campus to smoke. So, I end up having nicotine withdrawals at work and get all crazy and wide eyed and freaking nuts right at the place I need most to be cool and professional. I absolutely HATE smoking. But, I crave it so much when I don't have it. I bought some nicotine gum and I'm going to take veggie sticks and regular gum and hard candy with me. I'm reading here a lot and getting prepared. I have tried before and didn't make it, so I'm scared that will happen again.
I also think that cigarrettes make me forgetful. I can't think or concentrate when I'm wanting a cigarette, so nothing sticks in my mind. If someone tells me something when I'm wanting a cigarette, they may as well have not said it, because I will not recall it at all.
I'm looking forward to smelling good, feeling calm, remembering things, having the extra money and having a clean car. Among other things! I just need to go the distance. I wish there were nicotine anonymous meetings near me, because I have no real support, no one I can talk to about this. I'm glad this site is here, too bad though that there isn't a chat room or something similar.
Thanks!
