I am still in the learning process with my quitting and sometimes I still have a hard time with it. I still fear that I am missing out on something when I am not smoking and I seem to be trying really hard to fill that void with something else. I have been enjoying fishing ever since I was a kid but I still get cravings or pangs when I am fishing. There were a lot of things that I did in my adult life that I associate with smoking. I need to figure out how to let go of that fear. As the days go by and the more I read of Allen Carr's book the more I learn about the benefits of not smoking. I got a rebate from my cell phone company and if I was still smoking like a damn train I would have bought a lot of cigarettes with the money but instead I am going to be putting the extra money into the gas tank of my truck. I am wanting to become a healthier person by not smoking and I am still feeling bad of offending all the people that I have dealth with of the way that I smelled and my ashtray like breath. I have a gut feeling that it is going to take me awhile to get that smoking smell out of my clothes and the smell out of my truck. Even when I go on long road trips to my doctors appointments I do get bored regardless if the radio in my truck works or not. I am also finding out that I am still wanting a cigarette when I get stressed out or after a meal. I know and understand that this feeling is not going to last forever but it sure does seem like it is taking its time going away. There are a couple of other books that I am interested in reading when I am finished reading Carr's book. The more I learn the better the chances are of me staying quit. I also recently learned that I have a new goal from my doctor. My body has to be completly nicotine free before they do the surgery. They are going to give me some time to finish up my nicotine patches. That gives me something to look forward to because the surgery will help my left shoulder.
