Hi all,
I can't see my count clock since I'm here at work, but I know that I had almost 2 years. Since June of this year I have started smoking here and there. A few in a week, then none for a few weeks, then a few again. I keep telling myeslf "that's it, no more" but apparently I'm not listening to myself. I just had two cigarettes. I don't have any of my own but I work with quite a few people who smoke and recently moved my office (not my choice) so that I have much more contact with these coworkers. Obviously I have a choice whether or not to smoke. Why am I making the choice to smoke? *big sigh*
I have my wedding coming up in a little over a month, work is going well but has it's own significant stresses, my location change has not been helpful, I have recently stopped taking my Wellbutrin (about two months ago because of side effects). Sure, there are lots of reasons why I've reverted back to old "comfort" methods, but ultimately I made a choice each time I smoked. I don't know how I feel about where I am right now. I guess that's why I'm writing, to try to sort it out. I have all the tools I need, Allen Carr, family support, etc. but I am feeling an ambivalence that I don't know what to do about.
