Failing

[linda8]

Well here I am, I have stopped my counter, and I am going to be honest and admit to my EX friends that I have failed at this quit. I do know it is something I did to myself, and there are no excuses. I went out on a Friday night, there was beer, and lots of other smokers, and I am the one who made the stupid decision to light one up. Thank goodness I am not back smoking full speed ahead, but by god I have definately awakened the nicotine receptors. I would love to tell everyone, that I am ready to re start my quit, but I need to be honest and just admit at this point I am not. Again everything is an excuse in this game, but I am in the middle of moving, both at home and at my office, so i am not even going to fool myself and pretend that i can commit to such a huge undertaking at this time. I am going to do my best to not smoke much, and I am so sorry to all of my great friends out here in the EX world who gave me all that help through my early rough times. I do realize that there are going to be rough times ahead for me, and the loinger I wait the worse it will be. It took alot for me to come on here and admit my failure, so people please do not be too harsh, just realize I know the mistake I have made and I will have to be the one to deal with it. I hope everyone on here has a great smoke free day, even if I do not.