I think that's a pretty clear description.
I couldn't figure out why the fight had gotten so bad and this morning I think I got it. I had been on Wellbutrin and I quit taking it several weeks ago; I believe a lot of the noise in my head was from that. I should not have stopped it. Based on how I've been feeling (in general, not just the smoking part) I think that the Wellbutrin was not just helping with the smoking but also with my depression which I guess I underestimated. The noise in my head was so bad I just couldn't stand it.
I'm going to restart the Wellbutrin immediately. I will not give up this fight.