Day 6 and this morning on my early walk I was feeling very high and grateful. The scenery was beautiful and calming. I was thinking how grateful I could experience it smoke-free. The long walk was fantastic and I felt renewed!!
Things change, though. Right now I had to get on the site because of cravings that have come up. I am disappointed but after reading Dale's blog on the first four months yesterday-I realize I still need to battle with the mind games in my head. The cravings are strong. I am battling them. I am reminded by a quote from Vince Lombardi just how important it is to stay quit. He says,
"There is only one way to succeed in anything, and that is to give everything"
I have to give 100% to my quit! I need to do it now and forever after. I wish there were an easier way than to deal with all this crap but I remind myself-I picked up the first cigarette. I know Dale said the first 2 weeks were the hardest-but I feel exhausted. Not an excuse-but the truth. Where do you guys get all this strength to last sooo long. I feel like it will take forever before I stop having all this misery. No, I do not want to mope about it-but,in truth, I am whining. I really should not but it is sooo darn hard. I need a lobotomy! LOL I need to be done with this!and I do not mean give in-though I would like to especially dealing with these cravings.
Trying to keep busy and not think about it but what more can I do? I need to do more. Just do not know what.
