Emotions!!! Emotions!!!!

[isa]

I am crying at the drop of a hat. I think it is because I can't figure out a way to deal right now. I fight with my boyfriend about the pettiest things and then get angry and cry. What the f??? I do feel proud that I didn't give in today, though. I figured that just that ONE cig would have made it worse seeing as I would feel guilty and disappointed in myself. Anyone else feeling like their emotions are out of control???

Feeling psycho .....

Isa : )

[paula19]

OMG THAT IS ME SO MUCH AND I QUIT SO MANY TIMES AND ISTILL CAN'T GET USED TO IT!! I HATE THIS AND I DON'T FEEL THE PHYSICAL ADDICITON AS MUCH ANY MORE I'M IN MY 11TH DAY AGAIN AND STILL SAY GET OUT OF HERE I HATE U TO MY BOYFRIEND!! I AM NOT HAPPY BUT MOST OF ALL I CAN'T SEE THE REST OF MY LIFE WITHOUT A CIG!! I HAT GETTING UP CAUSE I KNOW I CAN'T HAVE MY COFFEE AND CIG I MISS THAT SO MUCH AND MOST OF ALL I MISS NOT BEING ABLE TO SMOKE AFTER I EAT CAUSE THEN I KEEP EATING!! I HATE IT ALL! BUT THIS IS A CHOICE NO ONE IS MAKING ME QUIT I JUST SEEM TO TRY IT ALL THE TIME!! IT HAS NOW GOT MY PHYSICALLY ILL WHEN I SMOKE SO I DECIDED TO TRY AGAIN!! I KNOW I FEEL BETTER PHYSICALLY, BUT MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY I HATE LIFE WITHOUT THEM!! DAMMED IF I DO DAMMED IF I DON'T!! ANTIDEPRESSANTS DON'T WORK FOR THIS ON ME!! I LOVE CIGS AND HATE THEM!! CRYING FOREVER!! AND BLOATED AND FAT AND JUST WANT TO SLEEP FOREVER IF I CAN'T HAVE THEM AND I REALLY CAN'T CAUSE I CANT BREATHE AND GET HEADACHES!!

[isa]

I know .... crazy how one thing can take that control. But I think we'll be ok jeje. Good luck girl and keep it up. We gotta do it this time.

[mrs.b]

I too go through that emo thing everytime I have tried to quit. Outta no where I'll be crying. But remember feelings won't hurt you, they are just feelings as bad as they may feel..it's better than lighting up, because you are right it just adds to how crappy you already feel. BTDT. But I hate the emo stuff too..Maddy suggested this author that Oprah is doing a class with...I just downloaded the classes (free) from Oprah.com...it's the New Earth one. I've listened to a chapter so far and I've finallly found someone who thinks like me. Anyway hang in there. Your not alone. So many people struggle with this addiction..but it is able to be beat we just have to find our paths ....to the truth that will set us free.
Mrs. B ~

[birdie2]

yes - but it will get better, believe me.....just need to ride it out and be patient.....if you really want to quit why start because of the emotions and have to go thru it all over again?