Oh well I am beat...Hubby & I worked our butts (asses) off in our backyard today..He was kind enough to go get us Starbucks..Yummy, yummy pumpkin spice for me today...SMOKE FREE day 39 an feeling 'GREAT"..The more I read about how someone is having a hard time I feel so helpless in their time of need...I have had my bouts but I try an not pay attention to them..There have been some big ones that sent me to the shower for re-enforcement..an then there have been small pebbles that I throw back at the nicodemon an laughed...
All an all I really feel good with my quit...I know after 50 yrs of being a smoker an contaminating my body with all kinds of chemical I really expected more mood attitudes...But I found all the tools available on the internet an prepared myself for this quit because it is what I really, really want ...Maybe attittude has something to do with it...
But I have taught myself way before this quit that if someone is out to hurt me they are gone an on top of my sh-t list... once U r on the sh-t list U never an I mean never come off....My hubby will testify to that...I turn my back an walk away with no intentions of returning..
The unfortunate thing is it took me soooooooooo many quits to be where I am now with the knowledge I have now an the tools to move forward..I did not have these before an was too subborn to listen to anyone because I was in denial for 50 yrs..
Well, I have made peace with myself an forgive myself for mistreating my body but hope it's not to late to reverse any damage I have done..
EVERYONE HAVE A WONDERFUL SMOKE FREE WEEKEND..I will be in an out but will make sure I stop by the 'FREEDOM TRAIN' to enjoy all the positive posting, wonderful pics an have a so call coffee clutch with U all..
HUGS TO ALL THAT NEED ONE TODAY!
