I know that almost all of you will say "Well I know better than that." "I won't do that." Believe me, I know better, and was detirmined not to do it either, but in the stress of the moment, I gave in. Now I will tell you the circumstances, but please know that I am NOT making excuses, I hope that someone may learn from my mistake, and not have to learn it the hard way!
I was on the 10th day of my quit, after going off the patch, and it got very difficult. My urges were very strong, stronger than they had been. This really surprised me, because I thought they were lessening. Well I struggled through the day w/o smoking. The 12th day proved to be even worse! I became extreeeeemly emotional and irritated on the drop of a dime. Any little thing that didnt go right in my day felt like a huge disater! Talk about a drama queen... but i couldnt help it! I spent that day and the next sobbing over silly stuff, of course, at the time, it didn't seem like silly stuff. It felt very real. I broke down and bought a pack of cigerettes, but also made a doctors appt for anti-anxiety pills!
I am on the first day... the nineth hour, actually, of my 2nd attempt. I really wish i could have... would have, gave it just a couple more days. I have the feeling that I would have gotten through it, and not be suffering as I am now, as I start agian! So it is a lesson to me, and hopfully it can be a lesson to you too! I am still dertirmined to be an exsmoker. And I will be, cause i wont give up!
