Dog days

[Martmart418]

I woke up with the urge to smoke, I told myself "eat breakfast and you will forget about it" started eating and lost my mind with other thoughts but as soon as I felt satiated, I got back into the habit "I am bloated! a little puff will stop the feeling" then lied to the wifie (wife) telling her I was going to fill the car's tank and all I could think on the road was the relief that puff was going to give me. I bit my lip as I opened the container, I and salivated as soon as the tabaco smell hit me, man, I even stop the car to lit it. I gave it two puffs then threw it out the window, then it hit me. The guilt. I slipped again. I am such a wimp! How can I do this to myself? Came home, told the wifie she hugged me but I felt her anger, how can I blame her? She has to live with a wimp who can't quit. I had been doing good, 6 months 26 days, all because my ego said I could fight it without the $25 expense for patches. Dammed dog days.

[Martmart418]

Sorry guys my English is not perfect .

[JonesCarpeDiem]

How much nicotine were you getting THE WEEK before you quit? # of cigarettes?

[JonesCarpeDiem]

Your English is fine. We don't judge. Anything that makes sense is good enough.

[sweetplt]

Oh I am so sorry...please don’t beat yourself up...and do not call yourself a wimp...Life allows many chances...start over...remember this moment and how you felt...knowing you don’t want to feel it again....You can do this...it’s ok...

Start telling yourself ... “You are worth it”... keep close to us...~ Colleen 364 DOF ~

[Cousin-Itt]

Martmart418‌  I do agree our egos can get us in trouble often in life or at least mine has. Hey you know a wimp wouldn't have come on here like you did and post that they fell.  A wimp wouldn't get back up and try again and this is for sure a wimp would have never went home and told his wife he screwed up.  Everything you have done shows you have the courage and desire to quit         Your English was fine

I know you can do this

Carl

[Barbscloud]

Just don't give up.  You're certainly not a wimp--this is one of hardest things I've ever done.  It took many attempts to get to this point and you can do it to. Start again and stay close to the site this time.  Reach out before you smoke.

Barb

[Martmart418]

Well almost 4 regular packages per week and shamed to say I started since I was 12, I am 32 now but this whole 2019 I have been reducing my puffs to nothing but I sometimes slip.

[Martmart418]

Thank you all! It's been a long journey Whit ups and downs, we moved to Texas from Mexico and started a new job wich is just too hard on my body with this cold weather, I am glad I have a job but along with it comes the new bills and it's just a cultural shock so my mind comes back to what it knows well. I certainly thank all of your encouragement and kind words! We can do this! I can do this.

[JonesCarpeDiem]

You were smoking 4 packs a week. Pretty normal.

So the week before you quit you had gotten down to nothing?

[JonesCarpeDiem]

Yes, completely uprooting for a new job is surely stressful but

You can do this.

If you're down to occasional puffs, you've proven it.

You can't smoke if you don't have any around so don't allow yourself access.

We talk ourselves into smoking and we can talk ourselves out of it before we smoke.

Get through the first two hurdles. One month. 4 months and you're on your way.

My Welcome To New Members (12+ Years Of Watching) 

the receptors die off when you stop feeding them.

[maryfreecig]

Welcome to Ex. You fell down, you got back up, you came to Ex. Sounds like you mean to quit and stay that way. Stick around. There is nothing like having quitters and good information to help you along. One day at a time you can do this.

[jonimarie]

If you think you're a wimp, then we are all wimps here.

Because we have all been there and done that.

You will hit a point/place in your life where enough becomes enough 

You will find you are tired of playing the beat myself up game from smoking

You will accept that having a puff serves no purpose 

In your own time you will make the commitment to never smoke again

Prayers you find peace within yourself 

Glad you are here with us!

[Giulia]

Let your ego say "I AM MAGNIFICENT.  I CAN DO THIS.  I CAN CONQUER ANYTHING."  And let the rest be silent.  Sometimes slipping is not quitting.  Sometimes slipping is...just smoking in between quitting periods.  If you don't want guilt - don't slip.  Stay true to that Best of You.  And if you haven't, you might poke your nose in Relapse Prevention‌  There's some goodly wise advice that may help keep you on the straight and narrow path to smoke Freedom.  We are all wimps against this addiction until we decide not to be any longer.  Until we've actually had enough.  When you've finally had enough you'll be the champion you are.  You don't really need to smoke.  You just think you do.  Change your thinking and you will come to the freedom you seek.

[Martmart418]

I dropped the quantity once my 5 yo was born, my wife kept asking me to stop, so I stopped smoking in the house when she got pregnant and away from my family members since they were bothered by the smoke so I started delaying my puffs and that's how I got down to a "normal" quantity. used to do 2-4 packages PER DAY. I am doing good I believe. But I always slip once I am stressed, I hate it but I can't leave it .

[JonesCarpeDiem]

There's stress for everyone whether they smoke or not. What gives them the ability to get through it?

You just have to break the pattern of "stress requires smoking."

Quitting is a mind game. If you're going to smoke hours or days apart, it isn't the nicotine you are seeking, it's the routine of smoking because that was your perceived solution. It's no solution.

Change your mind, change your future.