I have been battling this addiction for too long. I set my date once again for May 2. I wonder why battling this addiction is difficult for me. I tried several times and I allowed it to get the best of me. It is time to take my life. Ack and get healthier. I am not a grandma yet but I would love to be around for that. I am going to do my best and seek the help of loved ones to give me strength. Of pray so that my lord can give me above all the strength to do it once and for all