I caved. I am so pathetic. I didn't even make it 12 hours. I had my last smoke at 9:00 last night and by 8:00 this morning, I was ransacking the car looking for empty packs that might have one left in them. And then at 8:30 after I dropped the kid off at his babysitter's I stopped at the store, even though that made me late for work.
I think part of my problem was that I never did the separation exercises on the site. I just joined, read the blogs, and thought that was all the preparation I needed. Every morning I would wake up, roll out of bed and think, "I should wait half an hour before I have this smoke. But I won't. I'm sure I could if I had to, but my quit date is not today, so I'll just go have my smoke."
So...I'm going to work through the separation exercises for the next few days and my new quit date is this Thursday. I've found a buddy on this site and that is her quit date. Maybe I'll be stronger if I quit at exactly the same time as someone else.
