Desperation

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As I exited a second grocery store 20 miutes ago, there was a man digging through the public trash can directly in front of my truck.

He finished as I was opening my door.

His prize? 1/3 of a smoked cigarette.

He then asked me if I had a light. I told him I didn't, forgetting there is a lighter in my truck as I've never had a use for it as "I don't do that anymore."

He was filthy and went about asking others for a light. Logically, I was wondering how much long lasting joy he would get from the 2 or 3 puffs of someone's discarded butt? Not much, I would guess.

It certainly would taste bad.

You don't have to be homeless and filthy to reach a place of desperation when you're a addict. You can be a new quitter or an ex smoker and be seduced by the longing for nicotine.

Don't do it

forget it

it's joy is fleeting

You'll regret it

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Hello, My name is Dale. I was quit 18 months before joining this site and had participated on another site during that time. I learned a lot there and brought it with me. I joined this site the first week of August 2008. I didn't pressure myself to quit. HOW I QUIT I didn't count, I didn't deny myself to get started. When I considered quitting (at a friends request to influence his brother to quit), I simply told myself to wait a little longer. No denial, nothing painful. After 4 weeks I was down to 5 cigarettes from a pack a day. The strength came from proving to myself, I didn't need to smoke because I normally would have smoked. Simple yes? I bought the patch. I forgot to put one on on the 4th day. I needed it the next day but the following week I forgot two days in a row I put one in my wallet with a promise to myself that I would slap it on and wait an hour rather than smoke. It rode in my wallet my first year.There's nothing keeping any of you from doing this. It doesn't cost a dime. This is about unlearning something you've done for a long time. The nicotine isn't the hard part. Disconnecting from the psychological pull, the memories and connected emotions is. :-) Time is the healer.

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