Today was filled with ups & downs...but I made it through...now I'm studying for 2 final exams. And now, the craving is high...trying to ignore the nicodemon...trying to focus...really, really, really difficult though! Aaaaggghhh...need to get past this! Thanks for let me vent...
aaggghhh...more to vent about...
-a few hours later...
I was studying at the coffee shop...trying to cram every bit of information at the last minute because i haven't had much time to study...my best friend comes by and tells me how she got to read a couple of chapters during work hours because she wasn't given any work...and she comes in reeking of smoke! My job doesn't afford me any extra time to do class work...I barely finish up my work and don't even have time for breaks! So the minute she got there, my nerves got shot! Craving level went through the roof...still on shaky ground but i've locked myself up in my room...I have to study and I should be too lazy to walk downstairs, get in my car, drive to the store, buy a pack and go back home, smoke and get back upstairs! Laziness is actually a blessing right now...I think that statement is an oxymoron...lol! Whatever works right?!?!? This quit has to stick! I KICK ASH! SMOKING IS NOT AN OPTION!
