I was dreading work this morning, but once I got in there, the day went along smoothly. I wasn't crabby with anyone and I didn't snap--in fact, I was in a pretty good mood. My workload is pretty full but I'm not gonna let that bother me. It's not worth it.
My energy level feels better than it was yesterday--probably because of work and getting out of the house. I walked home from work too, a pretty good two mile walk that slowly ascends. There's a steep, gnarly hill toward the end of my route that usually makes my heart pound so hard it feels like it's stuck in my throat. But today when I went up the hill my heart was surprisingly calm. Is it possible that blood pressure improves after only four days of not smoking? Anyway, it's a great feeling and it has me excited about exercising. Maybe I should start jogging again soon. My muffin top is more like a bundt cake now...a GENEROUS bundt cake. 🙂 Gotta do something about that.
On a more mental note, one thing I find interesting about quitting is how easily your mind will lie to you. I have these split second thoughts where I completely forget that I quit. It usually happens after a stretch of time where I don't think about smoking much. Then "smoke break" flashes through my head and I have to remind myself that I broke up with cigarettes. Very strange.
So glad things are better today. I had such a hard time this weekend, even last night. All that crying and moping around. Just want to say thanks for reading and for all your comments. I think quitting would be ten times harder without ya'll.
Hope everyone's doing well today, but if it happens to be a rough one, comfort yourself with the fact that the rough patch will pass. Tomorrow is as brand new as you make it.
