Who knew that I should anticipate getting gas would be a trigger (I probably should have. Get gas/buy cigarettes 😵💫)?
I went to back doctor today, physical therapy so got some exercise, dollar store cruising along not thinking about smoking. Just feeling glad that the cough was better and that I could do some light exercise. When the “get gas” notification showed up I just added it to my list. “stop at Kroger gas, use your points and fill up.”
Not a big deal until I was stuck in traffic on the way to the gas station. Then I got the worst craving yet. I NEED A CIGARETTE AND CUP OF COFFEE NOW!” Definitely got my attention. Then I remembered my pledge and commitment to this group. I feel a responsibility to be honest and share what’s going on. I didn’t want to come here and have to tell you I smoked 😬. There is something about coming here and being recognized, knowing that you other folks have gone through and are going through the same thing.
I’ve been having this silly fantasy that as I become a non-smoker and have given up coffee and am doing my best to move more, I fantasize that I become an extremely healthy old lady:
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.goodmorningamerica.com/amp/gma/story/75-year-woman-lost-60-pounds-f...
Or a surfer
https://unofficialnetworks.com/2023/05/25/72-year-old-surfing/amp/
so I didn’t have a cigarette. Instead I came home, made a salad and got a big glass of water and started writing this post. It has sent me into a bit of a rabbit hole of old ladies who decided to get healthy.
I can’t wait to be one.
😉😍🚭
