Wow, this quitting is crazy, I feel like I'm all over the place, somedays are not so easy, most of the time I feel proud of myself at how good I'm doing, actually surprised how good I'm doing, I tell people that I really think I brainwashed myself. There are just certain things that really set me off and I need to learn how to make the urge go away faster, it seems a lot longer than 3 minutes, more like 30. I get a headache. I got most of the regular triggers under control, talking on the phone is still a challenge, I keep the conversations short, I tell people, I have to hang up, I'm sorry, I'll call you back later. I found myself talking the other day for quite awhile and was very happy about that. I still don't feel strong enough to take chances. This time of year is also very stressful, and just everyday life. My plan is baby steps, I took my first big step 9 days ago, I'm in no rush.
