Day 6

[Brian100]

I am so glad I found this site - I spend hours reading everyone's posts to help keep me focussed and motivated.  I am so grateful folks are so generous and willing to talk about the good, the bad, and the ugly.

I still feel ashamed that I was able to be smoke-free for 12 years and then relapsed.  Now I am going through this all over again (been smoking for 6 years this time).  My problem was feeling over-confident, smug about how long I had gone without a cig, and, well, lets just put it this way: I am one humble guy at the moment.

Will be at this site often reading your posts - many thanks.

[lois2]

Brain all it takes is a few puff, and there goes the quit, but you know that. i am on a month i have a long wats to go. oh what am i saying the way i seeit it will be for the rest of my life, NOPE. hang in there

[loriann5]

Welcome to the group Brian. Today was my 5th day! We can do this!!

[Brian100]

Thanks for the support - We can do this!

[Brenda_M]

Hi, Brian! It makes total sense that you would relapse after 12 years, especially if you don't get the power of the addiction. I often wonder how people quit before the Internet, before Allen Carr. How did they know never to have another? I'd ask my dad, but he'd give me some dumb answer about him just walking away from them without giving it any forethought.

[Jordan-11-1-12]

Congratulations on 6 days!! I hope you take the time to read the links Nancy gave you above.... the more we know the better. It sounds like you're wanting to learn all that you can in order to make this quit forever, which is the way to go. You can do this and we're all right here with you!

[Sootie]

Hello Brian---I had the same experience as you did----blew a 13 year quit. I am now 3 years quit (2009). I think my problem was that even though I quit for so long----I never truly became a non smoker...if that makes sense. I always still thought I LOVED smoking and felt I was such a martyr for giving it up. I always saw quitting as a punishment. I think it was inevitable that sooner or later I was going to pick one up again.

Now, I feel so lucky not to be smoking. I don't feel like I "lost" anything---but rather have gained so very much.

Welcome to EX----we are all here for each other.

[mrs.-almost2]

Welcome to the site!  I am not an expert by any means, but I can say this:  stick close to this site, it has helped me tremendously!

[family-first]

Hello and Welcome! I thank you as I am already learning for you, as we learn from each other! Thank You!

[Brian100]

Thanks, all - your support really does make a difference.

[jojo_2-24-11]

Hi Brian, I am a little late commenting on your blog, but  better late than never. Welcome to the site. Support for me is the key here compared to the last few qutis I have had. They were by no means long term. This is an addiciton to nicotine and as we all know, we have to treat it like one.Read as much as you can on nicotine addiction and take lots of deep breaths, drink plenty of water, laugh a lot and come here and blog, comment, ask questions. Stay positive and always protect your quit!

[JonesCarpeDiem]

smoking is always a choice, when you get that you are free.

there is no one puff  for most.

People who think that way and get through temporarily have put holes in their mental armor because they think they got away with something. Then they think they can do it again. Not so.