I was very excited when I embarked on my new journey as an "ex" on how new and different my life would become.
Guess what I thought about first thing this morning? IT IS FRIDAY and a beer sure would be nice this evening. I reckon I could drink and not smoke, I HAVE CONTROL - It is only up to me whether or not I will smoke. Then I rememered - I don't have as much control over the situation as I think I do! A beer would not be nice, cause I would drink more than 1, 2, 3, .....and then I would smoke 1,2,3.... My head would hurt in the moening and I would be so PISSED off that I allowed that to happen.
Plan B, I will go home to my nice clean home that I have burned so much energy in cleaning, hec I may even fix supper (ON A FRIDAY NIGHT!!!) I will spend the evening with my husband (remember, who went to deer camp? well he decided he was gonna quit too) Oh shit! That could be very dangerous to my quit.
Our anniversary is tomorrow and we will not spend it sitting around the house waiting on people to come over. We will get up bright and early (without the headache) and go Christmas shopping and we will have a GREAT day!
