Day 50!! 50 days of not one puff or slip up after quitting cold turkey. I was sick with bronchitis and used that as a kick-starter of my quit journey since I already hadn’t smoked for a couple days while super sick. It’s been one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, but after getting through the first 2 weeks (of hell), I knew I could really do it. I started thinking about it so much less because even though the cravings are still there, the actual habits that accompany vape life start to dissipate. Once that happens and you gain some freedom back, other habits now fill your routine instead whether you realize it or not. And you start thinking about those subconsciously instead. You realize how much time and freedom you’re gaining back with each “first” that you conquer (first time driving without vaping, first time going to the bathroom at a restaurant without vaping, etc). These “firsts” are little wins to celebrate BIG. Because with time, you sometimes won’t even notice that you’re doing them vape-free, easily and without a second thought, so give yourself recognition and cheer yourself on while they are still a really hard feat.
Today was the first time in the last 50 days that I finally found a juul, with a full pod in it, in my house. I was searching for something I lost and accidentally found a juul in the couch cushion. I was always scared of this happening. I got the most overwhelming feelings. It seriously felt like I was holding something evil in my hand and I threw it away immediately! I felt uncomfortable. I felt the grip that this tiny little device has had on me. I imagined myself hitting it once before throwing it away and that made me feel bad about myself, even just to think that way after all my hard work. But I can’t really blame myself and all that matters is that I threw it out and I’m still going strong. It’s been about 30 mins and I feel fine now. Make sure you throw everything away so you can avoid these uncomfortable and challenging temptations. And just remember it gets easier - you can do this no matter what!
