Yesterday was tough. I came out my office and someone had left the door open and smoke was coming into the front office and I said can you all please keep the door close the smoke is bothering me. I am trying to stop. and do you want to know what one short troll said why does the smoke smell that bad. Are you in a bad mood. Is this what we are going to have to deal with from now on. I said no I am not in a bad mood but I don't want any temptation. But for someone who has never smoke a cigarette in their life they may not understand why it's bothering me to have the smoke come into the office. I walked back to my office because if I had not I think I would of took his head off his short @#$ little shoulders. I didn't think that my day could get worst. My oldest son told the secretary at school that she has no soul. This was after he was sent to the office for throwing his homework packet in the trash (by mistake!) and he was putting glue on other student chairs. I said to myself if I can get through this without a cigarette then I know that I am ahead of the game. I was ready to strangle him. He did tell the secretary that but it was only after she yelled at him for being in the office but he was there waiting for his teacher to give him a copy of the homework packet. Never had me and my husband got to the school so fast coming from different directions. We talk to the teacher and secretary it turn out not to be as bad as I thought. But he did tell the secretary that she had no soul. I had to laugh at the one but not in front of my son. Later that night we went to my husbands graduation. It was nice. I don't crave cigarettes as much anymore but I still do have craving but I feel like if I give in and have a puff I would be letting myself down. My husband said to me that he has been eating everything in the house now that he is not smoking. What is he supposed to do. I am chewing a lot of gum and eat a lot of chips. I have noticed that the plain chips are very salty. I am worried about gaining a lot of weight now. I am trying to not eat too much of the wrong things. I keep telling myself to stop at the store and get some fruits and veggies. But I keep forgetting until I get to the house. This morning I prayed and asked God for strength because I just felt that today is going to be a trying day for me. I don't know why but that is what I felt when I open my eyes. Anyway I just want to get though day 5 without smoking.
