I am slugging it out big time today. Seems cravings coming out of nowhere, every nook and cranny of my mind not to mention seeing a standup cig ash tray out in the parking lot. Mostly I'm ok when I sense the thoughts/cravings coming; its the crave wave that gets me like when i turn my back to the ocean and walk back up the beach; that one slaps me good.
At the same time, you people have so much wisdom for someone new like me. I think there is more true inspiration and wisdom here that reflects the fundamental human struggle than any place i've ever seen. As a religious studies major with an ongoing interest in theology, you can well imagine all the symbolism i see in everyone's writings. Anyone ever happen to read martin buber's "i and thou"? well, this site is that book.
okay, back to riding the craves out, sucking on tootsie rolls, chewing straws, gnashing my teeth. they all hold their own place in my covenent with myself and all those who make this gathering of people, each of us fighting his or her own battle, what it is.
I am so new to this, I can only reflect. When I am seasoned, I hope to give back. But first I have to get through today.
mdmd
