Day 5: So tired

[AMReed]

After such a great day yesterday, today was kind of rough. I had PT at 8:30 this morning and I don't usually have it until the afternoon. I was so worried about oversleeping that I ended up not sleeping well. And I am NOT a morning person. I think I may be one of the most difficult people to get up in the morning and my husband has actually stopped helping me wake up on time for things because apparently I'm "scary and mean" upon being woken up.  Poor thing, he puts up with so much from me some times. No desire to smoke on the way to PT, but I do think part of that was from downing a smoothie on the way there so I'd have something in my system before working out. I always get stim on my back with a weighted ice pack for 15 minutes at the end of the session and I nearly fell asleep today. Got home to start work and I was struggling to keep my eyes open. Before quitting, anytime I was tired like this I would just go smoke to wake up and it usually made me feel a bit more awake. I know now that that was just from feeding the addiction. But my cravings were pretty high today during that period of exhaustion. So eventually I just ate a bit of lunch and took a nap. Everything was much better after that, but the middle of the day was a little bit of a struggle today. I'm going to have to find a bit of activity for when I'm feeling like that again. Maybe I'll walk over to the lake and back, or maybe something as simple as doing a couple push ups or jumping jacks. Pretty sure my boss won't appreciate me taking a nap EVERY time I'm tired, because that's an awful lot.  So off to bed I guess. Tomorrow will be a better day.