I sure didn't expect this. I have been so happy about my quit, and for the last 24 hours I have not been able to stop thinking about smoking. I am NOT going to smoke, notwithstanding the fact that I feel so strongly that I want a cigarette. I know what I know. I've said before, I can't unlearn what I've learned about addiction to cigarettes. I would hate myself if I smoked, because I would have broken a promise to myself. I know I am torturing myself, and I definitely don't WANT to be doing this. I have tried reading, watching TV, eating, but I defintely draw the line at going out for a walk. It's REALLY cold out there and very icy, so that's not an option this evening. I know, blah, blah, blah I can ramble on and on, but in the end it's only a feeling and feelings are like waves in the ocean or clouds in the sky. They pass. I hope they pass soon, because this is really wearing me out.
