Day 44

[mindy6]

I am so proud to note the days as they come 🙂 44 days without a cigarette. I am so grateful. I never imagined this possible before the Ex. Yesterday and today have been fairly easy. I am still breathing and doing it better than before! I actually find myself avoiding going to visit my mom, because she is a smoker. I am not quite sure how my dad, who quit smoking over 10 yrs ago, can live with her smoking day to day, somedays 2 packs per day. And how ignorant she can be, and I was, to smoke in his presence and show no respect to his quit. I believe deep down I am angry with her and I am angry with him for allowing it to go on. I often wonder if this is normal ....

Oh and an Ambien update- it knocks me out and I can't get up without being groggy ... I am going to half to cut the pill in half. Tonight I am going to wing it without the medicine.