Hello everyone,
It's Day 3 again for me and I want to be accountable for each day especially these beginning days. I spent most of the morning on here writing to old friends and new ones! I am so grateful for all of the messages and support from people here! It really has lifted me back up and I feel so good! 🙂
I have enjoyed reading all of the blogs again. I really get so much from so many of them. It amazes me how so many people with a common thread can have a different perspective about the same thing. This is what makes life interesting and fascinating. It's like, wow, I never would have thought that, kind of thing, you know?
Someone may be at the same place in their quit, but their circumstances in their life may be totally different. Our circumstances do affect how succesful we are with our quit. We just have to learn that what we once thought was allowed is no longer allowed and enforce it until it is a concrete law in our own minds. It's all about focusing and not allowing circumstances to distort or overpower our focus on our quit! This is what I have learned from my mess up, I hope that anyone who even entertains the thought of taking just one puff can look at me and learn,,,one puff does make us a smoker. I lost 9 months and I am sad about it, but I need to get over it too and move on,,,I now have 362 days to look forward to celebrating my first year of STAYING smoke free! That's it in a nutshell, ,,I can't shine it up or gloss it over. It is what it is.
I had this very vivid dream over a week ago that really has stuck with me. I dreamed that 3 different "sage-like" people came to me at different times. Each one told me in their own way the same thing. They all said " If you don't change your ways right now, you will die in 2 years!" I swear! I really dreamed this!! When I woke up I thought, I don't care what anyone thinks about this. I don't want to find out if it was true. So guess what,,I am making some postive, solid changes now!! I don't want to see if I'm going to die in 2 years! 🙂 I am here to stay!!
I know I'll die someday, I just want more than 2 years!
Well, I hope everyone had a wonderful smoke free weekend,,I sure did!
Thank You All for being Here and Best of Luck to All Other "Newbies"
Love & Hugs!
Diane
