Day 23 -

[kim51]

I really don't have much to say today .... I'm tired and my body is sore, but I'm smoke free and the cravings are lessening quite a bit. Last night my husband was being a total pita and the thought that went thru my mind was "where can I go to get away from him?" and not "I want to smoke". I wonder how many cigarettes I smoked just to get away from him in life?!!! Oh and I just went into the bathroom and closed the door for a few and then took my kids for a walk! 🙂 Once I realized I hadn't even thought about smoking, I felt great and proud of myself!!

Have a great Wednesday everyone!!

[SaraSmile]

You truely are KICKIN BUTT, Kim! Keep doing what you're doing cuz it's working!

[john-pugh]

Great quit so far, and congratulations.

Does you husband smoke? or has he ever smoked?

[jennie3]

good going

[fiveblessings]

You're doing it, Kim! I must say when I first quit NOT being able to escape the chaos of my household was pretty unnerving. I used my going out to the porch to smoke as my quiet time. Now I have learned other ways to do that (shut myself in my room with something on tv that no one else would enjoy is one). Way to go on keeping focused!

[stephen3]

Kim, It's amazing what will come to surface when we stop self medicating andclouding our minds. I know what you're going through, I am realizing some things in my life that I need to face and change. The good news is, our minds are clear and we feel inner strength from doing this major thing that we thought impossible. One thing at a time, one day at a time. Stay strong, Stay quit. Focus on you and your kids happiness. Things happen when they are supposed to.

[kim51]

Thanks for all the wonderful words of encouragement everyone!! You have no idea how much I appreciate it!! The support I get here honestly means the world to me!!

John - No, my husband does not smoke and has never smoked. I know, he doesn't get it. However, his mom smokes and she quits every other week for an hour or two - when she does he talks about it like she has walked on water! But here I am at 3 weeks and I should be "over it" by now. Its frustrating but you know what ... I can just feel within myself that this was my time to quit. I don't need his support, encouragement, or understanding. Don't get me wrong - it would be GREAT to have it! However my quit is not about him in any way, shape or form and because of that, he CAN NOT ruin it or take it away from me.

[clea]

Wow............ HIGH 5!!!! That's exactly what I go through at home with the wife...... trippin trigger without a doubt........ OK, I got outta the house now........ ummmmmmm....... ok... weed out around the shrubs......... naaaaaaaa that bites........ dig through my truck and look for a cig lolllzzzzzzzz....... already did that 80 times........... ummmmmmm forget it......... go back in, take her in my arms and calm sweetness down............. hhhhhhmmmmm sounds dangerous......... and it goes on and on......... what's going to give me a heart attack first, cigs or sweetie............ lolzlolzzzzzz Anyway, congrats to ya!!!!!!!

[jacob5]

Times like that are so hard. You did the right thing Kim. We're here for you also.

[john-pugh]

i HAD A FEELING THAT WAS THE CASE. He has no idea what you are going through. When you and him have time, let him read some of the blogs of some of the people who are quitting. He might see that you are doing very well!

[kim51]

John - I appreciate the kind words and advice. Maybe someday, but probably not right now. First of all, I don't think he WANTS to see that I am doing very well. Somehow my accomplishments seems to make him feel as if he is "less than". Hard to explain, but lets just say he has issues. He has his good points too - he really does....being encouraging of me is NOT one of them. Secondly, right now I want to be selfish. This site is MY place to come - this website. I'm not ready to share it yet. But ty for the advice and ty for caring!!