Ya know, at this point, I barely even have cravings after eating or when having drinks with friends. I feel no fear of breaking down or starting back up again. On the other hand, I am experiencing debilitating depression. This is not my first (depression) rodeo. Ive dealt with it for years on and off, but this is BAD. Last year in a quit smoking attempt, my Dr put me on Welbutrin. It triggered the worst depressive episode I'd ever experienced. I quit the welbutrin and never really quit smoking. This time around, I knew if I was gonna manage it, it was gonna have to be cold turkey and all me. I did it. I put the cigs down 23 days ago and havent looked back. The first week or sa was actually great. I felt so good! But about 10 days ago I started slipping into this ugly scary place. Some days I can't stop crying-even at work, with friends, or at work outs. I feel like I am drowning.......
Im doing everything right....I am working out HARD with a trainer 4-5 times a week, I am eating super healthy (but overeating to be sure). I am getting plenty of sleep and giving myself small milestone rewards. I have an amazing group of supportive friends and family.
I guess my question is this: Will the depression pass? Is this normal for someone like me? Are there any people out there further down the quit path than me that have experienced this?