I have not been on but that is because I have been meditating and trying to enjoy my non smoking life. (well get used to it....while telling myself I am enjoying it) If you tell yourself something repeatedly it will become true. Psych. I am enjoying it. I don't have to worry about running out overnight. I don't have to worry whether I have to get money out to make sure I have them. I am breathing better and feeling more alive. For this I am thankful. Now I have quit cold turkey many times in the past with each of my six pregnancies. Last night, however (not pregnant FYI), I encountered a whole new level of crazy craving. I am down to like 2 cravings a day and they are more like "time of day" cigarettes. Once in the evening and once late at night. They were my two "aaaahhhh I am finally alone now" and my "aaahhhh everyone is finally asleep and it's quiet now" cigarettes. I basically push through the craving like it is nothing. Then last night, I dream that I am sneaking behind people's back smoking and that I keep telling everyone I am just going to smoke one. Don't overreact. I did not wake up craving cigarettes. Quite the opposite. I was furious with the "me" from the dream. I have never in ALL 6 of my previous quits during pregnancy had this dream state craving. Is this normal???? Anyone???
