I'm feeling pretty proud of myself, my urges to smoke are few and far between, I even had a couple beers last night and watched my guy go out repetedly to smoke.
I'm sure a good portion of this has to do with the patch, I'd be silly to think it wasn't, but I do know a lot of it has to do with changing my mindset and my way of looking at quitting.
I've gone to lunch with my friend both yesterday and today, she smokes, and the only reaction I had was a bit of sneezing, actually that is a common reaction now. Cigarette smoke makes me sneeze!
I'm seeing and smelling people smoking and not feeling envious or wistful, I am instead thinking how sad and silly they look, and how glad I am that I'm not doing that anymore.
I had some crazy weird dreams last night even though I'd taken the patch off prior to going to bed. But since I was expecting weird dreams at some point it didn't surprise me to have them.
I guess to a degree I'm fooling myself, since I am still feeding a steady stream of nicotien into my system via the patch, I'm still addicted to that shit, but I'm not lighting poisonous leaves and sucking on them now.
Breaking the nicotien addiction will come later.
