Day 2 -- edgier for me than day 1

[addictedagain]

I'm at work, and it's my planning time (I should be grading and recording papers) and I'm here. This morning, the little things that annoy me are more pronounced. Those students that are in the mood to be flippant are not who I want to be around. I'm having to "steel myself" in order to tolerate them.

This is the kind of times when that little voice barks more sharply. Teeth bared so I can feel the pointy edges as they egg me on.

I had some nicorette earlier, and it helped me during the early morning, preparing for classes phase. But if things continue to be edgy ... I worry that, this afternoon, as soon as I start up my car and head for my neighborhood convenience store for a pack of Marlboro Lights in a box.

I know I can do it ... and that it's worth it ... but dealing with the little voice of cravings is worse than dealing with sarcastic and whiny teenagers. And they're pretty bad.

Hoping this afternoon is calmer.

Jean

[janine7]

I know just how you feel, Jean.  I'm about 5 hrs away from completing Day 3.  The cravings seem to be much stronger today then they were yesterday.  I've been fighting them all morning.  It took everything I had not to go buy a pack of Newports and call my quit quits, but I didn't give in.  I chose to do something different and blogged about it.  I got some great responses that convinced me not to give in just yet.  We've come too far to give up now.  Hang in there!  You'll be so glad you did.

[diane39]

Jean - Day 2 sucked!!!!!!!!!!  HOWEVER, it will pass.  Breathe breathe breathe and let  it pass.  I'm on day 18 so I recall quite clearly day 2.  Hang in there.  It is sooooo worth it.

[james41]

Don't let those little spoiled  @#$%^&*('s control your emotions, you are to be admired for even walking in there much less staying! So hang, hang, hang in there, it gets better  not just magically wonderful better mind you,  but a lot better with each day!

Thanks for your insightful blog

James

[dstambaugh1984]

Man, I don't envy you in that situation. I was probably one of those kids growing up, LOL. Good luck to you! We're all wishing you a good afternoon!

[carole_]

Hang in there Jean.  There are many snarly days in the beginning of a quit.  The best thing you can do is divert your thoughts to something else, or just go DO something else, take a deep breath too.  I chewed on many plastic coffee straws.  Took them everywhere I went and drove with them in my mouth until I got the hang of not  sticking a flaming nicotine stick there instead. 

That was many, many moons ago.  So I can tell you that you CAN get through this part of it and don't ever have to have another "Day 1."  As babies we didn't start walking out of the womb, so hang in there, quitting is a process that time makes better and better.  At first, just like that baby, we are dependent on others for support, then we start to crawl but still need support, then we walk and life's new found freedom is feeling good, then we run and just know that as long as we protect our quit, and not ever have 'just one,' we can stay quit and love every minute of it   Stick to your guns no matter how insane you feel or crazy it makes you think.  I had many rubber room moments, believe me.  It's all temporary in the big picture.

[anacondahead]

One more day and the nicotine will have left your system (if you went cold turkey). Hang in there and don't give in. I just read the program on quitsmokingonline.com and it was VERY helpful for the mind.