Well the day started out OK a few cravings but i sailed past them keeping myself busy. I ran some errands then off to work, where my back went out. Oh my, not now! So now I'm propped up in bed trying to type this blog out. I have so many regrets about giving up my 3 1/2 year quit. One I can't believe I just didn't think when i smelled that cigarette someoneelse was smoking. Two It's hard to believe I have to go through all the withdrawals and no-mans-land again. Three I let alot of people down, myself, my kids, my family and friends. And the list goes on and on, but I will not bore you with all of them.
However, I did not smoke today. The first step in starting anew is recognising the problem and deciding to do something about it. Being proactive instead of inactive. I'm here, I'm willing to do the work and I'm staying focused. I'm not commenting too much right now, but soon the old Suzie will be back Strong as ever and with as much or more passion as before. Hopefully stronger and better!
Thank you everyone for your continued support. Don't worry about offending me, I may be starting over but I'm a survivor! (Which means I don't give up)
I did get knocked down but I'm up now, and this is going to be a fabulous new start!
I'll be seeing you around the Blogs!
Suzie
