Dear Ex Friends,
I have made it to the eve of 48 hours. For some reason, evenings are really difficult for me and the cravings strike hard. I can go about my business all day long, drive around, run errands and not think about smoking. However, after a nap or a meal I get an urge that is very strong and it lasts a long time.
I need to change the subject because I know that I'm obsessing. So, I'll tell you about my day and what I did. I went to the DMV to change my name because I just got married and have a new legal name. Since I had an appointment, I got in and out of there in thirty minutes. It was not as much of a problem or a pain as I thought it was going to be.
Next, I went to my school district to change my name and visit the director of personnel who is a friend. She went to the same fertility specialist that I am going to and had a healthy baby girl about 10 months ago. It helps to know someone who has been through a similar process because we can openly discuss things.
I came home around noon to take my husband out for lunch. Then, took a long nap. Life is good. I'm holding on to my teddy bear for dear life and sucking on dum dum lolipops. I have to guard my quit like I would my child. It is not easy and I am not enjoying the constant fight with my nicodemon. HIM: "I want a cigarette." ME: "NOPE, I don't do that anymore and have to go to something else instead." Lots of deep breaths...
I think I will try getting out of the house for a bit and may go to Pier One for some scented oil. Then, I'll finish the evening by walking our dogs and get to bed early.
Hope you are all having a great one and staying cool! HUgs, Jennifer
