Hi Exers!! Happy Friday to all.
Last night I got into an arguement over finances. These are the most stressfull kinds of arguements you can get in. I'd have usually ran out and smoked right after. But yesterday that wasn't an option. I got a nice glass of water, popped a tic tac and went to bed. I'm one of those people that don't argue much, but when I do WATCH OUT ! And without going too much into detail, I just felt a little used. And of course it's my own fault.
I love how each scenario in life was always followed by smoking. The more scenarios that go by that I don't smoke, the easier it's becoming. For Instance this morning I didn't remember that I smoked this morning, until It was time to take my patch off, shower and put a new one on. Stress is a trigger all the way and I know that I have to protect my quit super hard at that point.
It would have been so easy to smoke, but I thought "Really, how is smoking going to help?" Other than giving me cancer and COPD how is that cigarette going to help me through.
I have a SMOKEMARE every night now, and in my Smokemare my mind is saying to smoke and that I dont care. Then as soon as Im done with the Smokemare cigarette, I feel guilt, shame and failure. Something I don't want to feel during my awake life.
Going away tomorrow. WITH ALL SMOKERS> Wish me luck, because if I can get through this, I can get through anything !! 😉
Phil
