Day 118

[thebears8171]

There are a lot of things going on. I have a very busy and stressful life as some of you can tell. My hands have taken a turn for the worse. My niece got married. I had to help with 70% of the arrangements only to dislocate my knee cap 2 days before the wedding and then pulling a muscle or something in my stomach the following day. Then the day of the wedding I got the bad news that my Grandmother 1500 miles away from us passed away. We got done with the wedding and left the following day with 3 kids under 5 and drove the 15oo miles. That was a 25 hour trip straight through. Stayed in a hotel ate out all week then takes us 3 days to get home. Had to take it a little easier to get home. My body was screaming at me. Then the last 2 hours I lost my contact. So now I have to wear my glasses for a while til we can recoop from the trip so I can get more contacts. Now, The dr is teeling me to come in because of the mri of my belly. WOO HOOO!!!!!! Just what I want to hear. My middle son is in 3k. He comes home in trouble today because he hit a little girl in class. How nice is that?

So, now that all of that is out..........I am worn out and still an ex!!!! I don't think I have the strength to go out and roll it and smoke it in the stinky hot shop outside!!! Not too many more days left in NML, but the craves are still there. I don't think that they have let up any. There aren't as many, but they are still fierce!!!

I do love being a non smoker. My husband used to say that he always had to watch the kids anytime we went anywhere. Now I tell him "you were outside smoking. How doyou know what's going on?" He walks out. (to smoke) I am glad that I don't need to comit suicide to deal with my problems. (there are plenty of those too!!)

So, here I am now with over 800 emails and about 10 minutes of peace. Yes!!! I am on here!! Oh, well. I like to keep my blog kinda sorta updated. I have a lot going on, but I still try to pay it forward. This is a gift that none of my family or friends could give me. I want to share it with others. I love being an ex and I hope that I will have more time to help others soon.

Thank you fellow exers and future exers!!!

Leigh

[Ex_Nancy]

If it were me, I would go hide for awhile, but life goes on nevertheless...YIKES! And guess what? It could have been worse...a lot worse. That's the way life is. I am VERY sorry to hear of your grandmother's passing.  Thank you for coming here to vent...we will help you Leigh. I guess you'll have a bunch of medicals in the next few months. I'm SO GLAD that you kept your quit and that you and your family made it home safely...let's take care of YOU now...let go and let God. xoxo

[Ex_Nancy]

Cyn put this up this morning...Congrats on DAY 118 and want you to know that I admire your strength. (maybe you can get blue contacts?)    img alt="" src="" />  

[thebears8171]

Thank you Nancy. It seems that my me time is less and less. The only thing is that I don't have any as it is. I don't know where the time goes. One day you are single carefree and totally ALIVE. The next....married for the second time with a total of 5 boys, the possibility of not having anymore and the knowledge that being a stay at home mom is what you are. Wow. Where am I in this picture?

[Ex_Nancy]

I was not fortunate enough to ever become a mother, but my sister has 2 boys that are almost grown and she's been busy for years on end...she is beginning to find her real "me" time now but I also know that she loves her boys and wouldn't exchange her busy life and career for anthing else. I was one of 7 kids and my mother loved us all until she died, (from lung cancer) You will find your "me" time Leigh...relax when you can...God gives us the  strength we need it, and then some. xoxo

[Ex_Nancy]

You could scare all of your boys and your husband with some "zombie contact lenses",lol   ...img alt="" src="" />   

[Ex_Nancy]

If you look closely, you will see the mickey mouse icon too.  😛

[thebears8171]

lol I had cat contacts with the yellow. those were wild. Hubby said hell no!! GRRR I will get some that are different. I already have blue eyes so i thought about those really bright aqua ones!!

[YoungAtHeart]

OMG - you should be SO proud of yourself  Protecting your quit though all you have been through is an AMAZING feat!!!!

Give yourself a pat on the back.  We are all giving you a round of applause...............

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