Day 11 - so bad

[Bree19]

I don't know why.  I survived the moods, tantrums, cravings of the first three days.  After that my quit kit came in handy for the 2-3  minute craves many times a day.  Today however, stuck in my head, not a craving as such...just a thought.  A strong thought.  Breathing, straw, chewing gum, water, walking...the thought is just stuck there.  "You can just taste it to make sure it's disgusting".  Is that my addict talking?  B!&%*h!  Where did she suddenly come from?  I was expecting her in NML?

Then, just to top it off, we watched a movie (The Intervention) where, I think, every character smoked.  I could smell each one I saw!  I should have switched it off, it really wasn't anything great...but I watched every cigarette.  

I still haven't smoked today.  Was going to try to stay awake till 3am to chat to you folks but I think better to take this nagging voice to bed and sleep her away.   Sorry folks.  Won't be meeting you this time, sadly.  Please blog tomorrow about all we're missing?

Bree

[YoungAtHeart]

Your thought is akin to "just one won't hurt," or "you've got this beat; just prove it to yourself by having a cigarette."

You are wise not to listen!!!

You will be missed this evening, but your quit needs to be your #1 priority, and getting to bed is a good tool to use about now.

I hope tomorrow is better!

Nancy

[Chuck-2-20-2011]

The addict within knows no bounds when it comes to trying to derail your quit. The sweet whispers are the same lies that we saw through when we quit. Unfortunately we all have to experience this at times. The trick is to take away its power, but that takes time, as it is a journey! Good for you for not giving in. It will be strength for you in the future!

ONWARD TO FREEDOM!!!

Chuck

[kristen-9-7-15]

It sure is the addiction talking and we have ALL been through it. Listen to what the addiction has to say and then shrug it off your shoulder. No big deal. She can talk all she wants but you and all of us here at EX know she (the addiction) won't win. Good idea to go to bed. 11 days is AWESOME! Keep it up Bree!

[Mandolinrain]

I recall watching smokers on tv and it was as though I was smoking with them...or least wished I was.

11 awesome days Bree......dont allow those stale thoughts to rob you of what your worked so very hard for. Glad you went to bed. You will wake up tomorrow so proud you didn't cave.

When the going gets tuff.......come here!

Sweet  Dreams!

[Kaila2]

You got this Girl! It's ok to want one, but not ok to break and smoke one. You are stronger than this craving. Picture yourself talking someone else out of smoking (like a child or teen). Picture yourself as a strong women leading and teaching others how to be free and happy. Very Proud Of You. Keep Going !!!!!