Ok for an update. I have not broken down. That is why I am here blogging!!! After day 3-4, the nagging itch to smoke slowed it's roll to like 3-4 cravings daily and the cravings lasted only a few minutes. Things were going great!!! (Still are just want the cravings to settle down) Last night, the cravings kicked things up a notch. It is no longer like a stupid voice telling me I NEED TO SMOKE but instead more like a hostage negotiator. It has resorted to trying to make a deal with me. I am hearing things like you have gone ten days... you have mastered it - you win - you quit smoking. You could easily smoke one and walk away. To which I reply NOT ONE PUFF EVER AND NOW LEAVE ME ALONE. Then it replies with something along the lines of well you should at least smoke one to celebrate the quit. To which I reply SHUT THE HELL UP AND GO AWAY!!! and in a few minutes it does but it returns with these same arguments. I am not smoking nor do I want to but I feel that somewhere beneath this really determined surface there is a tiny part of my brain that is actually thinking this voice is right. Now it is as if I am fighting the urge (craving) and that small piece of myself that has caused my failed attempts in the past. It is weird how this was hard then harder then easy and back to hard. Is this normal or am I losing it? Please friends send me some input. Thanks so much and sorry for the ranting AGAIN!!!