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Day 10 - God why is it starting up again????

piper
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‎10-10-2015 11:44 AM

Ok for an update.  I have not broken down.  That is why I am here blogging!!!  After day 3-4, the nagging itch to smoke slowed it's roll to like 3-4 cravings daily and the cravings lasted only a few minutes.  Things were going great!!!  (Still are just want the cravings to settle down)  Last night, the cravings kicked things up a notch.  It is no longer like a stupid voice telling me I NEED TO SMOKE but instead more like a hostage negotiator.  It has resorted to trying to make a deal with me.  I am hearing things like you have gone ten days... you have mastered it - you win - you quit smoking.  You could easily smoke one and walk away.  To which I reply NOT ONE PUFF EVER AND NOW LEAVE ME ALONE.  Then it replies with something along the lines of well you should at least smoke one to celebrate the quit.  To which I reply SHUT THE HELL UP AND GO AWAY!!!  and in a few minutes it does but it returns with these same arguments.  I am not smoking nor do I want to but I feel that somewhere beneath this really determined surface there is a tiny part of my brain that is actually thinking this voice is right.  Now it is as if I am fighting the urge (craving) and that small piece of myself that has caused my failed attempts in the past.  It is weird how this was hard then harder then easy and back to hard.  Is this normal or am I losing it?  Please friends send me some input.  Thanks so much and sorry for the ranting AGAIN!!!

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Thomas3.20.2010
Member
‎10-10-2015 11:51 AM
Stop arguing! YOU are the boss! The more you argue - the more attention you give to the addiction! Just like. Misbehaving toddler, your addiction wants attention! Just redirect your focus and get on with your Smoke FREE Day!
JonesCarpeDiem
Member
‎10-10-2015 11:53 AM

dOUBLE wHAT tHOMAS sAID!

JonesCarpeDiem
Member
‎10-10-2015 12:08 PM

Don't  give it life. There is nothing up there telling anybody what to do but you.

piper
Member
‎10-10-2015 12:18 PM

Awesome.  Thanks!!!  It is hard sometimes.  I will say I have replaced the addiction with 7-11 coffee with the flavored syrups and flavored creamers.  OMG delicious!!!  OMG it's my favorite y'all I love it!!!  Lol.  Oh and when leaving the 7-11 this a.m. there were people smoking outside.  I did not really notice them until I got back into the car with my coffee and shut the door and the smell of cigarette smoke was on my sweater and I was like gagging it was stanky and then I was like well thank goodness I decided to stop smoking and smelling that way.  It is funny, as a smoker, I thought people who would complain about smokers who smoke in front of the businesses were just being ridiculous but now that I walked past those smokers and realized not that stench was in my clothes, I was angry about that.  Lol.  It is all in our perspective I suppose.

Thank you guys for your support and words of encouragement.  I am over that hump and the rest of my day is going to be busy I am going out of town for the evening and won't be back until late.  Going to get my hair cut and dyed.  Decided to change from blond to something different.  I want a new change in hair style for the new change in lifetstyle as a non smoker.  Then off to so some paranormal stuff.  Then home.

Have a great day, my fellow non-smoking friends!!!

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Puff-TM-Draggin
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‎10-10-2015 12:22 PM

TRIPLE THAT.

I had the very same experience.  My addiction tried every line you mentioned and then some.  You didn't mention the, "Do you really even want to quit?  Your life is so miserable; I'm the only good thing you have going," line.

If you are able, follow the elder's advice here and try not to fight it.  Just accept the discomfort as though it were a blessing.  It is difficult for me too, but I hear what they are saying ... it all depends on how you look at it.  If you look at your discomfort as the new, unfamilar sensations of escaping addiction and achieving a smoke-free life with better health, more money in your pocket, and a higher sense of self-esteem, then it is something to celebrate.  Admit it!  Your discomfort is not really painful.  It's just different.  Enjoy it!  Growing pains.  You are growing.  I suppose a flower bud might feel similarly uncomfortable as it blooms.

Let your beauty shine and embrace the sensations and emotions you experience in the becoming.

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YoungAtHeart
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‎10-10-2015 02:06 PM

Double what puff said!  You can acknowledge that voice, then simply tell it, "I don't DO that anymore.  Now, what can I do to take my mind off of it for a bit?"  Then  DO it.

This quitting smoking is like a roller coaster ride - there will be ups and downs and twists and turns.  Hang on - just do the best you can to ride it out.  It is SO worth it - I promise!

Nancy

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Sootie
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‎10-10-2015 02:28 PM

I echo everything above and want to add.........all of us smoked for a LONG time. I really never (or rarely) see anyone on here who has only smoked for 6 months......even just one year. 

So, having smoked and lived with addiction for so long, Day 10-----WHILE A SUPER ACCOMPLISHMENT------is still early days. Expect many ups and downs on this incedible journey to freedom. Be ready for them....actually EMBRACE them as evidence that you have quit smoking forever and can handle whatever comes.

Stay Strong.

TerrieQuit
Member
‎10-10-2015 02:52 PM

I smoked for 45 years!! and I ditto, ditto, ditto! everything said above! Don't sit in it and listen to the demon, acknowelge him and then simply get up walk away and find something else to do! Each time you do that, it will make you a little stronger! Congratulations on 10 days!! Keep moving forward!

Smoking is UGLY! NOPE

Terrie  96  DOF

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Deena-A-Yenni
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‎10-10-2015 03:37 PM

It's amazing how this site works.  The ex-smoker in need shouts out and the people on this site encourage them in any way possible and poof, problem solved.  Simply amazing.

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JACKIE1-25-15
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‎10-10-2015 04:34 PM

Day 10 is still a very short time in your quit.  There will be he ups and downs. Expect them. have a PLAN and keep it moving.  You have to be in control instead of the mindless addiction.  Stay FOCUSED it will get better. Cngrats of  240 hours smoke free.

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SkyGirl
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‎10-11-2015 03:33 PM

Hey, Delilah!  Does this sound familiar to you?  It should.  YOU wrote that!  I read it in your blogspot, along with a lot of other wise thoughts.  You were applying it to LIFE.  But if you go to your blogspot and insert "quitting smoking" where appropriate, you will see that you already have the quitting journey all figured out---you just need to remember to apply it specifically to quitting when you are having trouble with your Quit.

What is important is to just believe that we are where we are supposed to be as long as we are on the path to where we want to be.

And by the way, I also absolutely loved the part of your blogspot entry that talked about when you are having a bad time, it helps to "mentally freeze" the moment and find something GOOD in that moment; a flower, a gentle breeze, a child's laughter.  Great stuff, Delilah.  You got this,  This is your Forever Quit.  We are all here for you!

xxxooo,   Sky

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