Ok so, I am back. I am committed to not dying of a smoking related disease. I am committed to showing my daughter that we humans can do ANYTHING we put our minds to, when we educate ourselves enough. It sickens me to think that I had 70 days smoke free years ago and all the damage that I have bestowed upon by body since then. Ugh. But, the only thing I need to do right now is make it through this first day. I will tackle tomorrow, tomorrow 🙂
I am using the patch because honestly, it is the only thing that I can afford right now and they actually do work for me. I would love to go back on Chantix but it's just not feasible. My last cancer stick was at 7am this morning. 6 1/2 hours and not counting (yeah right)! I have asked my husband to not smoke in front of me and to put his smokes somewhere I have no awareness of. He supports me, so I think the only hard thing will be when I straight up ask him for one. I have no intention of asking but you know what happens when that addiction starts knocking.......
I hope everyone I used to be close to on here is well! It will be great to see some familiar faces (profile pics I mean, hahaha!)! Thank you for still being here. I genuinely love this community and am excited to share the journey with you all.