Made it through day 80 and will be past 100 days soon. Very hard at work as we have not been paid in 4 weeks (supposed to be weekly) General attitude is 'If dont like it go get different job saying that and knowing for most people there is no other job available. Today so very nearly bummed a cigarette as felt so totally hopeless. It all will pass and one day we will get paid just general attitude sucks from my supervisor. What seems to happen on days like this is a deeper level of compressed feeling gets released and then feel healthier in long run without restuffing things down inside with a cigarette. Good things this week: My cat tryed to catch her first wild turkey and got its tail...scared the dickons out of both turkey and cat. My new toy puppy played in his first snow up to his belly this morning. The sun was out. It is Thanksgiving and I have a roof over my head even if not very warm it is warmer then outside. It is a good week.
