Well, did rest yesterday with no guilt I figured if I was getting little support the previous 48 hours then the errands can wait 24 hours. La de dah! I took a nice nap, made it half way thru a movie I ordered on the tv. Then snoozy doozy. Made the whole difference. I wrote down my feelings and shared them w/ hubby. I asked him to read it before he came home. I figured, why not some prevent defense. I was so afraid he'd be snappy about all this tree crap, why not tell him before he comes home how his actions made me feel and to please not do it again. Well, it worked. And I know another thing for sure. Rest during quit, if your body is asking for it, is imperative. Any newbies reading this. Please see my blogs re rest and exer comments on there about it. You have GOT to carve that out if your body is asking for it. It is essential to replenish the mind and body and believe me it eases the cravings, helps clear the mind, and restore the body. Plus, every minute spent resting, really resting, nicodemon gets no time.
I also know this for sure. I asked for prayers yesterday and some of you must have done it for me. Thank God for all of you and I wish you peace and love. I pray a multitude of blessings for you in return. I could feel last night that someone had prayed for me and my husband because this house - it was full of peace, respect, help for one another, friendship, trust, a love of a deeper kind than romance. I think the Holy Spirit was sittin' on the couch with us!
Interesting turn of events. Nasty tree neighbor writes hubby ugly email yesterday. Hubby fuming and upset w/ neighbor, not me. I've rested and got myself in beat addiction mode and thanks to all of you, back to that place of nothing we can do will make the neighbor change. When you are dealing with a psychopath, you will never be able to be rational with them or make them happy. Anything you do, anything at all, they will be upset with becasue any chess piece you move on the board, any offer you make, they will try to find a reason to be upset about it even if it is what they asked for. It's like psychopath asks for piece of cake. You bring vanilla w/ choc icing. He complains. So you ask what kind he wants. He says choc w/ choc icing. So you bring that to him on a silver platter and he complains that he wanted it served on a ceramic plate. This is the neighbor, no I'm not kidding.
So, feeling caught up by the nasty email, husband treats me like a best friend, I talk hubby down off ledge. There is only kindness and support between us. Husband looks to me for help. See, he was able to see how I felt the day the ugly email was directed at me. But thru my knowledge on this site, rather than pick my husband apart (and say "see how it feels?", "I told you so, etc,") instead,, I tried to show him the way. Ugly responded w/ ugly begets war. Ugly responded by nice begets you know in your heart you took high road and can look self in mirror. This formula is not appropriate for every situation but it fits ours. At some point, my husband may have a word w/ the guy but for now, we are in negotiations and are potentially close to resolution so for now, we keep the calm, work together, and take a deep breath.
Thank you Lord publicly for this day of refreshment after two days of exhaustion. Thank you for the blessing of this site and all of those on here. I pray you bless everyone on here with peace and joy. I pray you reach your hand down to everyone to succeed in their quit whether at day one or day one thousand. Thank you Lord for the breath I have as you restore my lungs and for the strength you give me to work out twice this week and for the finances you graciously supply so that I can have a trainer to teach me the right way. Thank you for the ability to rest God. I am blessed that I can take that time - some may not have as much freedom in their schedule and Lord I ask that of you too, please let those who need rest be able to find the time for it God - help ease their busy lives and give them the space for rest, peace, thus journey to restoration with and through You.
Love to all of y'all,
Stacie
