LAKE EFFECT SNOW WARNING........SWEET! FRIDAY WITH A SHORT WORK WEEK FOLLOWING IT!............ SWEETER! 5 MONTHS WITHOUT A CIGARETTE............PRICELESS! See, at least for me, the longer I remain smoke free and the greater positive achievement I CONSCIOUSLY attribute to this state of being the STRONGER my quit becomes. I AM NOT COASTING THROUGH LIFE ON EASY STREET I still deal with irrational crap and irritations all the time. I am still in an environment surrounded by ADULT people that maintain the same attitudes I once held. I still work in an environment that has the same levels of stress. MY QUIT MINDSET IS NOT BEING ERODED AWAY. It is not being diminished it is growing with the numbers on that little counter of mine!
Like I said yesterday, that garbage is NOT BOTHERING ME near as much! As a matter of fact what I am doing now is using the FEELING of irritations such as the beginning of ANGER, STRESS, or SOME OTHER lead-in to a NEGATIVE EMOTIONAL RESPONSE AS A "TRIGGER" for active intervention on my part. Funny that a LARGE NUMBER are the SAME "TRIGGERS" as my smoking triggers. It has become very natural now to check my beliefs and thoughts. The filters I use to process external stimulus and then formulate an opinion in my mind. I ask myself why would that bother me? Most of the time I'm finding that I get irritated because I WANT TO HAVE CONTROL OF THE SITUATION AND IT'S OUTCOME AND DO NOT. I AM DIVORCING MYSELF FROM OWNERSHIP OF THOSE PROBLEMS THAT I DO NOT HAVE CONTROL OVER! Now my irritation and stress levels are greatly reduced. I politely, and sometimes NOT SO POLITELY, inform people of that!
That does not mean ignore problems nor does it mean refuse to help. It means that I am working towards NOT BECOMING emotionally attached to the crap that is not mine. It is amazing how much of my own personal energy and passion I was, and sometimes STILL DO, attaching to these situations and scenarios and just WASTING. No wonder I would feel like I don't get paid enough for what I do. Have you ever said that? They don't pay me enough for this shit! Or this isn't worth the trouble! Turns out WE WERE RIGHT! ABSOLUTELY CORRECT! So the odds that pay is going to radically increase to cover my trouble are NULL then I'm not attaching the trouble to it. I shouldn't have from the start and I'M NOT ACCEPTING IT FROM OTHERS AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE NOW! Man I actually do not feel anywhere near as drained at the end of the day any more. Quite frankly I was feeling drained on many days well before lunch. I'm leaving work now on most days feeling pretty energized. I'm not in the position to make policies and controlling decisions for others, EXCEPT IN MY BEING therefore the outcomes of MANY situations are almost predisposed. The ones that are not ARE IN FACT UNDER MY CONTROL and I will and do joyfully apply all my knowledge and skill to them. Technical issues I love. Business politics and BULLSHIT I cannot stand. LYING, CHEATING, BULLSHITTING, INCOMPETENCE, AND A WHOLE HOST OF OTHER UNDERHANDED TECHNIQUES USED BY THE WORLD UNDERLINGS I STAND BRUTALLY AGAINST! I have 101st Airborne Diplomacy so it is much better that I just SMILE and SHUT UP........ LOL
Read into the above as you will. I am actively exploring ALL of the stimulus and MY RESPONSES to that stimulus that formerly allowed me to HAVE THE MINDSET of a SMOKER. By doing this I AM LEARNING to INTERCEPT IT AND BUILD MY MINDSET AS A NON-SMOKER
AS A RESULT,
TODAY I CHOOSE NOT TO USE!
TODAY I AM CLEAN, SOBER, AND SMOKE FREE!
TODAY I HAVE AN HP THAT GUIDES ME AND I CHOOSE THE WAY!
TODAY I KEEP DOING IT NOT!
TODAY I AM FREE!
SO MOTE IT BE!
Papa Jimmy
