Cravin'

[deborah21]

Today is the end of the week and the start of another smoke free one. I have to admit that at least twice this past week I had a strong craving to light up. The first time was after an intense discussion with my mother so I figured it was natural because that was what I used to do.....light up after an argument, so I dismissed the thought quickly. It was the second time that threw me completely off my game. Jasmine was excited because she got a B on her math test(a subject she has trouble in) and I was so proud of her that I thought wow I'm gonna have a cigarette to celebrate...(WHAT) have I lost my mind.....a CIGARETTE to CELEBRATE. Reality has set in and now I am having to examine myself because I always thought I used smoking to deal with stress and problems never had it crossed my mind that I smoked out of joy or excitement. Well another revelation into my addiction.......at least I know, so now I can begin the process of overcoming. With all that said I BELIEVE this week was especially triumphant and I'm still a non-smoker.