I am now into my fifth week of not smoking and over the past few days I seem to constantly be thinking about cigarettes and it is really making me angry!!! There have been a few things going on that have been aggravating me so I assume that is what is triggering the thoughts. Saturday I had gone to a carnival and passed a bunch of smokers who were in a designated area and the smell of all that smoke made me gag. Today I went to the mall and as I was entering, I could smell cigarette smoke that smelt good. This is something I can't figure out....one time the smell of smoke can smell good and the next it smells nasty. Anyhow, through all of this confusion I am still remaining smokefree....I have brought a pack of chewing gum (regular gum) again to help with the battle going on in my brain. I remind myself of all the good things going on with my body since I quit smoking...no more cough, feeling refreshed in the morning and no longer have that dragged out feeling. I just want to reach the point where these thoughts leave. I can handle once in awhile but not constant. I also have a quit buddy to think about so I cannot, will not, refuse to light up again...that thought makes me sick. This site has given me all the tools I need to keep up the fight....tools I wish I had the other times I tried to quit. I am getting so desperate that I just might buy the lemons that Nancy and Dale recommend and start biting into them!! 🙂
