Well, it has been 2 months since I quit and I feel great. My biggest trigger, my chain smoking boyfriend, and I broke up a few weeks ago. Once I made the decision to take better care of myself I started noticing how much he not only smoked but drank quite a lot, and did not share much in common with me and the new path I was heading to be nicer to myself and be a better role model for my son in 2009 by quitting. So after 2 years it just fell apart, but it is ok. I did not want my son to have his only male role model (I was widowed when he was just a few weeks old- he is now 10!) to run for a beer and cig everytime life gets stressful. I have started working out instead, and with this new free time I have been accepting invites from people I previously did not have time to hang out with..and it has been fun! My son is so proud of me, and every week at my new exercise class it gets easier to breath- noticeably. I am so relieved not to always be so self-conscious of smelling like cigarettes and being irritable and always trying to sneaking away for one. I now have a healthy snack, take a deep breath, and tell myself "this too shall pass" when stressful things happen, instead of taking out on myself by harming myself inhaling poisons. I have something strong and forgiving and always knows how to make me feel better in hard times...it is ME!
