Been sporadically on here for a few minutes here and there the past couple days.
I have up days and medium days which is human. I am continuing to throw rational thought, assertiveness and mindfulness at my anxious self-defeating stinking thinking. I find that most of my catastrophizing revolves around insecurity about the same couple of things. It's like my addict pops up every now and then to really mess with me.
HOWEVER, I am perfectly healthy and my wife likes me, and I have the power and choose to surrender my fear of making mistakes and my false beliefs to God. I am a good person because a good person strives to be less selfish, rational and assertive. Everything is exactly the way that it's supposed to be.
I may need a slight adjustment in my meds. I see Dr. on Monday. However, I think that it is natural that sometimes things will spook me if I lean toward being a bit neurotic. I can countermeasure this by practicing the principles I mentioned in the last paragraph. I GAIN PERSPECTIVE WITH TIME.
I finished Slaughterhouse Five, the Rise of Darth Vader book and a book about Egyptology. Now, I'm reading Star Wars Path of Destruction.
Listened to the Flaming Lips Dark Side of the Moon garage rock take. Some of it works great.
Our kitten, Scout is standing on me now kneading a blanket (probably taken from her mamma to soon).
New Doctor Who has been great.
Waiting for an opening at work for a promotion.
We had my nephews last weekend and saw them a few days ago and played Mario Maker for Wii U. Totally awesome.
AND if you are still reading, know that we are awaiting the results of a blood test BECAUSE she tested posivtive on a home pregnance test!!! We are happy but still guarded because it has been a long road.
