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smorgy8513
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Morning to all.    Thanks to those who have asked me about how Sis is doing.     She is still in hospital (hopefully home today).    They have done angiogram which was clear, gotten rid of fluid on lungs and around heart.   Had x-rays and MRI to try to figure out the pain in shoulder/neck (not determined yet).         She has been diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure and so will be restricted on sodium and fluids.    She already has diabetes.    She never smoked, but her husband of 50+ years did and he died about 10 years ago from emphesema (sp?) and other complications.      So now both of my older sisters have CHF and that makes me more certain that I'm going to call my dr and have her check out my fatigue and all to make sure it is nothing to do with my heart.

Exhausting week, but I didn't smoke!     YEAH!!!!    

Today is my dad's birthday.    He would have been 97 years old but died at 64 from lung cancer....yes, a long term smoker who quit 7 years before his death.          Love you dad!

I'm going this morning for a massage.     Stressful week.   My other sister is more and more confused and it was a struggle to keep her calm this week.     She "heard" me tell her that they had to help Sis breathe and that all the family was going to hospital on Monday because it was so serious (not so).     Then it turns around to her and her problems.     Love her but it is draining some days!

Anyway, enough of my whining.....no thanks, don't need any cheese with that!

I'm staying smoke free today.......I have 234 days of Freedom!!!

Sharon

16 Comments
YoungAtHeart
Member

Glad to hear they figured out what was going with Sis - almost.

You are doing so well - you earned a wine and cheese party!

So - party on!

Nancy

Tasha795-2
Member

Sharon

You are a strong fantastic person . You are under a great deal of stress and are doing great. What an inspiration to all of us. You are in my thoughts and prayers. You remember to take care of you too. Congrats on day 234 smoke freedom!!! d 1337

LouiseR
Member

Glad you are taking care of yourself too and getting a well deserved massage. You are one wonderful sister!

Polynha
Member

A massage sounds good. Take care of yourself! ((((Hugs)))))

cheyenne7
Member

My thoughts are with you and your family.....hope some calming comes your way.  Going for a massage is a smart idea.....

Peace ❤️

jeanne-8-4-13
Member

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your sisters. Take care of yourself. I hope things get better quickly!

phyllis-12-7-15

Enjoy being pampered.

HUGS

Thomas3.20.2010
You're teaching all of us such an important lesson! Take care of YOU FIRST so you can be there for others! Continued prayers for you and sisters! I'm glad you're taking some time to reflect on Dad. Hard times but you're doing it right!
Magstoyou
Member

OH Sharon.

Sorry about Sis, at least they found out what is wrong !!!

Have a great Massage!!

(((((((((HUGGS))))))))) Mag

wishingstar
Member

keeping you both in my prayers.. Yes please do have your self checked .keep us up dated.

hugs 

marilyn_marmac

My poor sister/friend! I'm so sorry about both of your sisters and I worry about you. Please make that appointment with your primary ASAP! But the primary can only tell so much so insist that you be sent to a cardiologists for a stress test and full workup. You are in my thoughts and prayers ♥

candylance
Member

(((((((HUGZ))))))), sweet friend!! Enjoy your massage! Tell your masseuse that you need her to rid YOU of a lot of stress, maybe a hot stone or two. LOVE YOU!! Prayers for all your family and a special one for YOU!!!

Candy     d198

Strudel
Member

Sharon - Lots of hugs! That is a whole bunch on one person! I hope you have a great massage! And, yes, - please go to the doctor and keep us posted. Get some rest! That's an order! Take care - and congrats on those 234 days! 

beckola55
Member

Prayers for you and for your famly, it is important to take care of yourself so make sure you make that appointment.  Enjoy the massage like Candy said maybe a hot stone or two. Keep strong

Becky

Michwoman
Member

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this Sharon. It is draining on the mind and body. I'm glad to hear you are going to get yourself checked out. Very smart!!  I need you to stay healthy for our next roller coaster ride!

Praying for you and your family my wonderful friend!  Love you!

Laura

Jaxson1-16-14
Member

Huge HUGS to you Sharon. I'm so sorry about Sis!! I hope you enjoy your massage and it helps to relax you a little. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

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Gone but Not Forgotten. RIP I've thought so many times about quitting, done a few quits with the longest being 9 months. Blamed that relapse on my sister because she broke her hip. This time I feel different 8/5/13:The first day of my forever quit. About me? Well, I'm old enough that I am going to semi-retire (work 2 days per week) starting in October, 2013. I have 2 grown sons, 2 older sisters, 2 cats. I'm passionate about my work, love mystery books. I give all the glory for my work, any successes I may have to God and prayer. I have a lot of people praying for me right now and that is where I feel the strength. I also am finding strength, information and support from this site. I hope I can offer some of that to others when I get past the newbie stage. 9/4/13 30 days today!! I've learned so much since I've been coming here each morning (and sometimes at night). Words: choose, not try-----decision----not giving anything up, but gaining---I'm worth so much more than a cigarette. These are only a few of the pearls of wisdom that I've taken to heart. So many great people. I learn something each and every time I come on here. I'm learning about myself too. I teach clients everyday that feelings are feelings and ok to have, but I've always fought that concept myself. I heard when I was little "what have you got to cry about?" so I learned not to cry. If anger was shown it meant going back and shutting the door 10 times quietly or maybe getting the wrath of my parent. So, I learned not to cry, not to feel anger. I'm learning now that I have those feelings and that smoking pushed them aside and down. They are there and real. Now I'm trying to learn how to show and express them instead of going off by myself for a smoke. I have supporters. The biggest pride is what I feel in myself. With each day I wake up I can say "Today is day ____" and I feel proud. Not the kind of pride like I could never fail. That is a realization and why I need to be aware and conscious each moment. No, smoking doesn't solve anything. And today I am proof that I can go on without the crutch of a cigarette! 8/5/17 4 Years Quit!!! Who would have "thunk" it? I never took responsibility for my relapses, always blamed whatever it was that occurred. So, when I quit on 8/5/13 I knew I REALLY wanted it to work, knew that I needed as much support as I could get but I think deep down I was afraid this one wouldn't take either. So, I did as much positive as I could: Chantix, prayer, atomic fire balls, telling friends AND coming to the EX many times throughout the day. The people here became my friends as well as my family. I could share when I was struggling and get encouragement. Have there been struggles in my life since then that would have "caused" me to smoke in the past? Of course! Life goes on and troubles happen even when you don't smoke. I lost my sister who was also my best friend, my diagnosis of lung cancer and the treatment that has gone on since then (dr tells me "not curable, but treatable"). Would smoking make any of those things better? OF COURSE NOT! But when you're an addict the brain tells tons of lies to you..... Newbies: use the resources that the EX provides to you and you will have major milestones too. I thank my family here and love each and every one of you that have helped me! Too many names to mention.