I'm still sick with this pneumonia but yet I still want to smoke. Between 5 other people that smoke in my house and everything I have going on in my life , dialysis stress I have a big job going on my house with siding and windows coming. And the huge bill that comes with it. I sat outside at 2am The cool air felt so good going into my lungs ,it's been 2 days since I smoked a butt from Thier ashtray .be leave me this is vary embarrassing,I tried to talk to my wife that just made me more disappointed in my behavior I feel I want to just get away from it all so I can concentrate on myself and not worry about the house and family that I love vary much Thanks for listening