Well today was day 8 smoke free and the best and I hate to say it but worst day yet! I woke up around 5:30 am to Kristin ( my gf who is in the hospital. Had surgery on her spine on Wed.) screaming in pain. Not that its there fault but nurses were late with her pain meds. Ok we delt with it next we talked to the doctor. He says thinks are looking really good and we should beable to go home tommorrow! Hell Yeah! Then it hit like a ton of bricks! First that feeling in my neck then the heavy breathing it was and is the worst craveing to date and wont go away! am talking complete blindside! wham! I thought I knew my triggers and why would being happy set one off this strong but I have tried everything Candy, drinking water, taking deep breaths, even running stairs at the hospital. ( you should have seen the look on this poor nurses face as I rounded the stair case and scared the shit out of her) Even know 10 hours later it wont go away. I am not even close to giving up I am to proud of myself at this point to give in now, but what else can I do! So that is why its the best and worsed day of my quit. Kristin is improving very fast but this damb monster craving has wrecked my and her day! Trying to keep positive but might need alittle help!
