Feeling s of anxioty and depression are new to me, insofar as lasting these lengths of time. Honestly i feel like a stranger in my own body. As if sometihing is not quite right and it is unsettling and a little frightening. I wake to a new day, and instead of anticipating it's potential, and looking forward to it, i simply want to hide away. I feel a sense of dread, of worry, I think that things will never be ok again, I just don't know how to be like this. I just don't know how to be without joy. I just hope this is not forever. And yea, I feel alone. And I guess in a sense, a person has to fight these kind of battles alone....but it is just scairy, ya know?
